Free a.k.a Not So Free

Yes! I'm free!!! Free from that feeling!! Ohh girl, seriously, it was hard to erase that.. But, whatsoever..
Cause there's something more important than that.. Prefect!! AHHHHHHH!! Don't torture my brain anymoree... :'(
Why is it so hard to be a prefect?? So different from being a normal student.. My daily routine totally changed a lot. I didn't feel it that much when I was just shadow prefect but now that I'm a trial prefect, aigooooo~~~ Well, I did think too simply about being a prefect. For now, I'm a bit annoyed with the tortured feeling of being a prefect. I kept on thinking I can't be a REAL prefect next year. And that makes me feel like, what's the use for me to do my duty when I won't be the REAL prefect at all?? And what's the use to pay the monthly fees when I won't be wearing the blue uniform at all?? Well, those thinks keep on appearing in my mind and makes me feel hopeless.. I'm too scared I won't be a prefect next a.k.a disqualified..

Please don't make me disqualified.. I seriously want to be a REAL prefect.. Not just trial prefect and then disqualified..
-I want to wear that blue uniform so badly even when I always got scolded by the other students,
-I want to go to that so-early-6.50-am-prefect-assembly every morning even when sometimes I will come in late into the class in the morning,
-I want to do my prefect duty with my best even when my close friends keep on discouraging me of being a prefect as I don't have much time to hang out with them,
-I want to be a prefect which change me to be more discipline even when I need to write "nakamura" everyday..


Last but not least, Ahhhhh!! Tension!!!!!! End-Of-Year Exam on 12th of October!! :'(